I got ditched ‘cause my friend has a new man. #fantastic

That phone call..

just brought back a bunch of memories i tried to hard to forget.. must be strong to fight though this and give the saying “karma’s a bitch” a true meaning.

Lately..

..I’ve been really tired & uninspired w| no motivation.. on & off w| the depression meds again which is causing me to feel this way. Tbh I know I feel a lot better while I’m on them but when the thought of me having to take meds just to be happy enters my mind it makes me want to quit them but once I’m steady on them & I feel better then I’ll stop again & go back to feeling shitty again, It’s just this big stupid cycle.

You know.. ditching me for some bbq with your boys that you see every fckn weekend and coming back home to me with some stupid ass excuse and not even texting me back when you’re out and you clearly know I’m upset. You’re full of bullshit! Telling me that I have a right to be upset then fighting with me as if you’re the one who has a right to be mad.

FINALLY!!

-I’m steady on my depression medication.

-Finally called Momentum to get me started up on therapy again.

-Made some other important phone calls that I’ve been dreading.

-Filed my taxes via Turbo Tax.

-Cleaned my room.

-Figured out my outfit for ETDPOP.

I love getting shit done and feeling so accomplished!

NOW!!

-I can continue to celebrate the birthday of the love of my life ♥

-Catch up on “The Secret Circle”, that’s my shit right there!

-Figure out a make-up look for ETDPOP(:

-and Sleeping!

-Probably smoke a bowl and grub out.

Today is a good day, I feel like I finally deserve to relax and enjoy some of the things I do during my free time!